walks and talks

it just dawned on me. I've always wanted to grieve Joislen while holding a living baby. This is something natalie and I have talked about and connected with in understanding each other on many occasions. But It just never happened for me-- till today. How fitting d3 is the one I got to do it with. Get to do it with. What love. 👶🏽👼🏽 it's funny because taking Joislen on a walk in a stroller is something I literally dreamed of. I felt so sad to never be able to do that. Now I have the opportunity to do it with her brother, and I can't think of having him that far away from me. Lol. Ugh. Heart on full. Though some parts are full of emptiness---it's full nonetheless.