what an artist

Our Tiffany York has done it again! This is the second family she has recreated a picture for, hand drawn pencil art. She spends hours on end, days, sometimes even weeks on these pictures. To give a grieving family a piece of their child awake, without the painful reminders that are on the actual photos. She works out the skin breakdown and introduces some life to the baby (aydens eye is opened) while staying true to the integrity of the original picture. We're so blessed to be close to this amazing artist whose heart Joislen touched and in turn she designs something special for a near angel family. Shelby, we love you and Ayden. Tiff thanks again. Your an angel to the angels 

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We remember you

Dwayne is the best daddy in the world. Wears his Joislen bracelets everyday. And d3s on his other wrist. I'm blessed.

my babies

miss grace. miss grace.

i missed joislen so much today. you kinda just learn to breathe through it. and hug those who remain a little tighter. i just miss my daughter.

I waited for you. Now you're waiting for me 👼🏽👸🏽

with me

The rain looks like a starry night! I'm so excited for my final clinical rotation!!! #finishstrong 💪🏾🏩 the only letter left from the "joy" I put on this badge 3 years ago is the J. And that now stands for Joislen. She takes the "oy" of our of my endeavors--stress free zone! It's truly all good. This means so much to me cuz before I left the house this morning I thought 💭 I want her with me today somehow...and I forgot to grab a piece of her jewelry. And now. Not only is she in my heart. But she's the J that remains on my badge. J is for Joislen. My gift back baby 🤶🏽

we miss you!

First onesie in his drawer. First zip up sweater I saw and threw on. After I got us dressed I realized we were both thinking of SOS today 👼🏽

what do you love about your angel?

Joislen. One of the countless reasons I love you, is because you were never tainted by this world, so your pureness in my heart is unchangeable; your smile warms my heart through death to life. 🦋💛 my joyous girl. Daddy "Joislen and I love that she made it to heaven"

kamama thangs

contributing author!

PALS invited me to be a monthly contributing author :) the piece I wrote last month was published today. Way too excited to be a part of something so near to my heart 

on their website

Happy New Year!

a family photoshoot is not a family photoshoot without you. Merry Christmas from our family to yours.

ihop!

all the cousins went to Ihop! and we had a joislen baloon made for the festivities

North Faun

Morgan has done it again! She sent me timeless, flawless keepsake jewelry of d3 to include breastmilk. She even did one piece with Joislen's ash and d3s placenta! We love you girl. I'll share his hair bead when I get home. Best jeweler in the world. Hands down. Heart of gold. A jewel herself. 

Joisey bear was there for her siblings first meet!

oh my word. turn up the volume on this one

proud grandma

Moms been putting in hours at Shine Bright Academy. recently. Today a little girl walked up to her and put a yellow butterfly on her hand. My mom said "you don't know how special yellow butterflies are to me". The little girl smiled and went on about her play. Grandma came n told me the story and I said lemme take a picture. I was only gunna photograph the sticker. But she posed whole body, cheesing big, and said, "I want to make sure it's by my heart!" 💛

We love you, Grandma

my beauty

I had to look up what time d3 was born. I remember prolly a 72 hour play by play with the days surrounding Joislen's translation. I don't have to mentally record these specifics with him, cuz he gives me new specifics everyday. But with her. My earth portion with her was limited. And I've tucked every second away in my heart and mind. I can recall on those times for the sake of nostalgia, relating, and for comfort. Every time he smiles at me, my heart is overflowed with peace. When our out of womb bond began doesn't seem as important as continuing to enjoy it as it unfolds. I cherish all that has transpired but especially the now with him. I will always cherish what was with my daughter. But I especially cherish the now with her.
I got a tattoo when I was young that read "The only thing sweeter than memories is making them". I resented it after I lost my daughter. 'Nothing will ever be sweeter than her. No memory can replace her', I thought. I never considered I would have new memories to replace the traumatizing ones; with my daughter who lives in another dimension. Alas. Making memories with her has been sweeter than the original memories we made.

Everyday's a sweeter day with you

haha

lol I put him down for a nap and this was the position he moved to after an hour. Guess baby don't like sister bear hot breath in his face. 😂 Typical brother. Lol. (Sleep police don't worry my son can roll over n it was a monitored nap! No stuffed animals for bed time I know I know hush)

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A dedication to my angel Joislen, through the love I bestow onto her brother