the day after you left me

Aug 16, 2015

I promised a picture of Joislen when she was born. Our baby girl was born at 4:04am today. 6 lbs 11 oz. 20.5 inches long. (Daddy's weight mum's length!) Unfortunately. Her heart spontaneously stopped beating while she was in my womb, sometime between Friday night and Saturday morning. There's no explanation for these sorts of things. They just kinda happen, and we're in no position to refuse a cross that we have been entrusted to bare. So my husband and I vaginally delivered her listless body like g's. I only pushed for 57 mintutes. My body was made for labor if I may say so myself. we're excited for next time. We have a lot of peace. We know our angel is with our Savior. We are heartbroken as parents. But renewed in our faith as children of God. Warm thoughts welcome. Invasive texts and calls are not!!! Please don't ask questions or call---we really don't have anything more than what we are saying here, to say. We need time to deal and heal. This is a tragic loss for our family. Yet a wonderful gain. Because of our faith in Christ. This is not goodbye. Joislen Grace has no birth certificate. No death certificate. She had an epic entrance and exit all in the same moment. Her due date was August 14th. It's funny because on this countdown app I had for her due date, I decided to time it heartbeats instead of minutes. Who knew that not long after that countdown finished. So would her ten month life in me.
“By faith Joislen was translated that she should not see death; and was not found, because God had translated her: for before her translation she had her testimony, that she pleased God.” (Hebrews 11:5 KJV)

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